This week, I sat in a job interview.

Me. The girl who talks about solopreneurship.

Part of me feels like I’m betraying a version of myself. Another part thinks this might actually be one of the best decisions I could make right now.

Here’s why.

Recently, I’ve started wondering whether I actually want success badly enough. I don’t want to wake up at 5 AM and crush it every single day. I don’t want to work 12 hours a day. I don’t want to create content simply because I have to.

I want to go on trips knowing my next paycheck is guaranteed. I want to relax on weekends. I want to take my mum out for dinner. I want to buy new shoes, buy new books and send gifts to the people who have supported me from day one.

Is that too much to ask?

Listening to Alex Hormozi has also made me realise just how much work building a business takes. And honestly, I’m starting to wonder whether I have the appetite for it.

Then there’s the self-doubt.

What makes ME qualified to teach people how to run their own solopreneurship operations? Why should I teach people something they can find online or ask AI? And how am I supposed to convince people to take my marketing advice when I’m not even creating content consistently?

SHEESH.

At some point, I had to stop and ask myself what I actually wanted.

I want money.

Not “impact.” Not “freedom.” Money. In my account. On a schedule.

Writing that feels almost rude, which says a lot about how we talk about entrepreneurship.

We’re constantly told to chase freedom, build an impact-driven business and follow our passion. But sometimes, I just want a salary. I want to know what I’m earning next month. I want to make plans without wondering where the money will come from.

And there’s nothing wrong with that.

So, I went to the interview.

It was for a Marketing Executive position.

The Director was two hours late, but when he finally arrived, I got into the interview room and we had a conversation about my goals for the company and what I could bring to the table.

Ten minutes later, the interview was over.

There were three of us being interviewed, and the other interviews were fairly quick too.

In all honesty, I hope I get the job. I get to use my marketing and sales skills, work with a team, contribute to a business and, hopefully, get paid well for it.

And I don’t necessarily have to give up on building something of my own.

Maybe getting a job is not giving up.

Here’s what I’ve been thinking about.

What if getting a job actually makes me a better solopreneur?

What if having a predictable income gives me the breathing room to work on my business without constantly worrying about making money from it?

What if I get to learn, meet people, sharpen my skills and still build my own thing on the side?

Maybe getting a job isn’t the opposite of being a solopreneur. Maybe it’s just another way of supporting the business I’m trying to build.

I’m also trying to be honest about something else.

When it comes to being hungry enough to build a successful business, I’m not there yet. I’m not putting in the volume. I’m not doing all the things I know I need to do.

Am I lazy? Maybe.

But I also think I’ve become comfortable. The discomfort of not having enough money hasn’t pushed me to take the kind of action you’d expect from someone who desperately wants to build a business.

And perhaps that’s okay to admit.

I don’t think building a business should require me to spend every waking hour chasing success. I don’t want to build a life where I have to sacrifice the very things I want money to enjoy.

I’m getting older, and I’m becoming more interested in building a life I actually enjoy than proving how hard I can work.

So, if getting a job gives me the financial stability to do that, why should I feel bad about it?

I still believe in solopreneurship. I still want to build my own thing and if I get this job, I’ll fund my planner & card business. But I’m beginning to understand that the solopreneurship path doesn’t have to look the way I imagined it.

And maybe that’s the point.

Your turn: Have you ever taken a job while building your own thing? Did it feel like giving up, or did it feel like buying yourself some breathing room?

Tell me. I genuinely want to hear how you’ve navigated it.